I’ve read a lot about the kaleidoscope universe of the different personalities, especially about the overrated dichotomy of extroverts and introverts, plus the ever magical ambiverts who glide through both extremes. However, I’m still bothered by the thought that introverts struggle with change. Being an introvert and an INFJ at that, I understand how over-stimulation pounds on our threshold as we wrestle to keep our wits together. But one thing about me bothers my personality-conscious friends and myself: I actually enjoy change.
I don’t know exactly when and how this seemingly masochistic tendency started but I would like to share my thoughts on why – after a brief moment of frustration – I got to enjoy a sudden shift.
I hate it when I start thinking too much again. Back then I thought I was depressed and paranoid. Knowing my personality type gave me a sense of liberty to control my tendencies and tame my thoughts. When I’m confronted with change, instead of dwelling too much on fears and doubts, I dwell on its being a natural occurrence in life.
However, there’s no denying that I’m still caught off-guard. My flesh still trembles. I still have sleepless nights and nightmares. But I guess I’m just fed up with the many changes that will eventually take place. Brushing off changes is totally not healthy, so I urge myself to analyze the situation with a clear mind. Would it be beneficial? If yes, then great! If not, then let’s turn the disadvantage into an advantage. It may sound so positive a mindset, but who says an introvert is overly pessimistic?
It’s a challenge.
As a perfectionist INFJ, changes always leave me annoyed and upset. However, the benefit I see in this is that I’m compelled to tame and overcome my overwhelming feelings. I’ve learned to maneuver myself through the situation and see if there’s something I can do about it. A few instances, I was able to stop certain changes from taking place, but in most cases, I’m really left with no choice but to ride along with it.
The aspect of change that I’ve learned to enjoy more is the challenge it entails. The discomfort we feel should be taken more positively by – drawing from our core strengths as introverts – discerning, observing and by listening to the people involved. Plus, I find it rewarding after I exhaust any means possible to overcome something on my own. I totally feel victorious and fulfilled even for just a moment.